Feeling good..

As I am driving everyone bonkers on facebook about my newest journey, I decided to blog today..

I think that when I post, that most people think I am trying to "sell" them something... That is NOT the case! CLEARLY, I have had very little jobs in my life and a sales woman is NOT on the list! I have never done anything like this in my life! Deciding to sell Body By Vi was a choice I made for myself, to keep me in line and hold me accountable for my eating issues... I do not endorse products OR business's unless I whole heartedly believe in them and, for me this is working! Now, this goes without saying, I have completely changed my eating habits and started to work out! You have to! I think some people's misconception is "Oh I can have a shake and get skinny?" Uh, NO... It isn't magical, you have to do work and commit to a change!!! But all the nutrition in these shakes makes it so easy!!! Besides the taste is amazing.... James has dropped 12 pounds and I finally hit my 10 pound mark this morning!! A very big moment for me!!.... Now, on to another 10!!

I share because I believe in Body By Vi and what it stands for.... It's ok if you don't, I understand, but please don't be an asshole and say mean things. What works for me may not work for you and, I am ok with that, just don't bash me for trying to be my best:)

Have a great day... until next time, hopefully I will be down another 5 pounds!!!

Changes.

I feel like I begin ALL my posts with "It's been way to long" and well, tonight is no exception! ....

Sooooooo much has gone on since my last post... The Youth Football nightmare is finally over and in a couple months, Logan will graduate from Pre School, and Jayce will finish up 4th grade! I registered Logan for Kindergarten and I felt like my life was going to start taking on a new direction! I have known nothing but being a stay at home Mom for 9 years! I worked part time before and a while during Jayce's arrival, and shortly started staying home there after... ALWAYS having a cheer or dance job on the side since 1993!.... With that being said, Logan being in school more often starting in August, it opens up a window of possibilities for me.

I want to still take care of my family, I love doing that even tho sometimes I wanna kick their ass, but I had a need, a want, a desire to do something for ME! The last few years I have battled a nasty weight gain that I ignored.... I mean, I saw it, I felt it but I didn't want to do anything to help it.. So, as the clothes tightened and I felt like crap on the inside, I faked it on the outside.... I had been told about a new wight loss shake last April 2011 from my great girl Lindsey.... She raved about how good they were and for me, well ummmmmmmm, yeah I wasn't convinced! I had tried the slim fast crap that literally tasted like SHIT. Bleh! I am not about to starve to be thin, and let me get real here, I don't need to be "thin", I just want to be HAPPY, make sense? So, with much talk I tried a sample, and BOOM, Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmm! I felt like I was drinking a milkshake! They were yummy for sure! I ended up ordering and I did lose 10 pounds before recital last year, that felt great! BUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTT, after recital I stopped drinking them, and they sat around, and literally were shipped to my door every month because I was on an auto ship.... Money wasted? Possibly.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago... James has been bugging me to start a diet for MONTHS! I of course resisted! It wasn't until he went to the doctor because he just felt crappy and the doctor ran a panel on him.... Needless to say the results weren't great (sorry honey I am putting you on blast)..... His cholesterol was insane and the doc said he needed to make a change, NOW.......

Reality.. scared.. and I know that if I had gone in for a panel my results would be horrific!!!! Jayce's weight was up and down and he only ate crap, and I allowed him to, because I too was eating crap! Literally 3-4 pepsi's a day, no joke! I didn't drink much water... I CRAVED fast food daily and I would eat even when I felt full! This was out of control.

James came home a couple weeks ago and said, "You know what, you are not helping me so I am going to Weight Watchers today!" Uhhhhhhhhhhhh, there in my living room was 8 bags of Body by Vi shakes that I had invested in, and oh yeah, I tried to sell it to get rid of it too!! I said, "You know what? NO! WE are going to to the shakes and WE are going to do this together!" With a plan in action and some amazing inspiration from Lindsey Curry and Amy La Rosa, (Or LA RAZA as I like to call her) I took that next step to get some good solid support, a meal plan and a kick in the ASS!!!!!!

There were many days when my kids were not home and I would literally lay on the couch for hours or go back to sleep because I had NO energy to do anything! I secretly cried or stuffed myself with food to cope with being fat, yes I said it, fat. I was 120 pounds in high school and I thought I was FAT! Holy shit I'd die to look like that again! But really, another big driving force for me was the fact that 3 years ago I had a breast reduction, and I knew if I didn't stop the out of control roller coaster of my weight, that my breasts would grow heavy again and I DID NOT want that to happen! 3 pounds from each side were taken off and I never wanted to have that heavy (Literally!) burden on me again!

So, with that being said James and I began our new adventure as a couple on Monday March 27, 2012! James joined a cross fit class and I started walking DAILY!! I started at 20 minutes and by the end of last week I was up to 45 minutes... We drank our shakes and after a couple of days of headaches and detoxing the crappy food, I felt amazing! I had energy, I wanted to scream to the world how good it felt! I lost 5 pounds the first week and James lost 9!!! We have our fridge and pantry stocked with awesome, healthy food and what took me surprise the most was that our boys followed our lead! They beg for shakes every day! Even putting in fresh fruit! OMG, they like it?! YES! They do!

I signed on as a distributor for Body by Vi for one reason, I believe this stuff works for me and for my family... I am holding myself accountable by getting to share my thoughts with others and to show them that if I can do this, then so can you! I made excuses for years!!!!!!! Well, I am done making those excuses because I am proving to myself that I am well worth the challenge! I can and I WILL do this..... I honestly have never felt so good, EVER. I am very proud of my awesome husband for doing so good too! He has been such a huge motivator for me, and I am so grateful... James, I love you so very much... We have gone through a lot of bull shit, BUT doing this together is so magical, and I thank you for allowing me to try to find my self worth, find my footing and start making some serious changes to benefit our future..... You have always been, and will forever be my guiding light and the reason I am loving to live!

Feeling good, and making a plan can only start with YOU! Taking this step was HUGE for me and I am so glad I did this! I feel like I am finally doing something for ME! If mama ain't happy, NOBODY is happy! LOL! I want to share this journey with all of my family and friends..... Support and positiveness is my motivation and I will not tolerate the negativity, so for those of you who want to give me a downgrade, well shame on you. I was moved by the amazing people who's stories I heard at my first challenge party, it was like listening to myself speak! Moved to tears..... You know who you are:)

So, it's been a week and the BEST week of my life! Besides my wedding day, and birth's of my children:) I am on a mission..... NOT to wear a bikini but, to be the best I can possibly be!! I deserve that, and I deserve me:)

Good night friends.... sweet dreams and if you want to take control of your self worth, you know where to find me:) you can do this, because there is positive, motivating people in the world, you just have to know which direction to turn and, be ready to take the journey.... Nobody said it will be easy, but satisfying, ABSOLUTELY, you have no idea!

XXoo

www.misskerryro.bodybyvi.com

"Join The Challenge"

Let's get real...

It has been several months since my last post, so for you loyal fans and followers I apologize! Life has gotten busy!

SO many changes in our house the last few months.... Logan started school (thank god!) and Jayce started 4th grade AND youth football! I will admit that when Jayce came home last school year to tell us he wanted to play, I cringed! Now, before you judge me, let me be perfectly up front.... Since age 4 Jayce has played soccer... It has been a nightmare! The first year the coach was a complete jack ass whom only focused on his own son, and only cheered on his own son... I mean you'd think we were playing in the World Cup! BUT, despite my little voice inside telling me NOT to sign him up year after year there after, I still did... Let's face it, it is good to get kids out to be active!! Weekend after weekend we spent our Saturday's at the soccer field wtaching our very "non athletic", "non aggressive" son play soccer, meanwhile he is on the field waving to his friends on opposite fields and just letting people pass him by with the ball. NOW, I am fully aware that Jayce is simply NOT cut out for this sport BUT, this is a child who has a heart of GOLD! He is THAT kid on your team who will do as he is asked (but maybe half ass) and cheer for his teammates until he has no voice left.... This is something that ALL teams need.... So, I was super concerned about the football issue as, a former high school athlete I knew he was in for a rude awakning!

Practices began the second week of July... AND in the central valley that means it's fucking HOT! His first day of conditioning I prepped myself all day! I had his cleats out, bought him a new water bottle and was ready to go with my chair to watch my boy!!!! Now, my Husband, who is the president of the organization wasn't so sure I should go..... He told me, "If you go, you need to sit far away where he cannot see you"...... Needless to say my feelings were hurt!!! SO, being the stubborn ass that I am, I reluctantly stayed behind.... I didn't go for 2 weeks to watch him.. Now, I coached cheer for 10 years AND competitive at that... I know first hand that kid's perform better when your nose isn't up their rear! Jayce has never been an athletic kid, nor aggressive so, I kept telling myself that this was going to be so good for him.... I had NO idea!

We are almost 3 months into him practicng/playing... He has completley shocked me and James..... He is one of the last kids to run his laps, he doesn't hit to kill the kid he's up against, and he is so respectful to his coaches.... He has not complained ONE time about going to practice in the heat, I mean with the exception of a couple days of him just wanting to relax at home...... His confidence has shot through the roof, and he has made many new friends. I LOVE watching him, even tho he doesn't play all the time. He has shown me a new side to him! He has such a big heart, and so much to offer this world... The shitty parents who complain about every damn thing are hard to dismiss but, I try to stay away from the practice field so I am not "that" parent... It's not that I don't support the program or my son, I just don't want to be set off by an ignorant comment by a parent who sits their ass at practice and doesn't volunteer their time to try to help out the board.... I am so proud of my boy, it brings me much joy to see him having fun!

Now, the parents on the other hand, that's a hold new world for me.... It is difficult with having a child play and having my husband as president.... Many times I have to bite my tongue in order not to embarress James or Jayce. Although positive suggestions are great, it's the negativity and the fact that parents think they are owed something! It is beyond me why people would sign their child up for something and then sit around and complain about every aspect of the program, whether it's coaching or not wanting to follow the rules! Aren't we the ones who are supposed to be setting a good example for our kids? It's very frustrating to me when people don't offer a solution but continue to be a problem.... Youth sports would NOT operate without volunteers and a really solid board! These people are taking time away every evening and every Saturday to coach your childern, and to keep them in a safe environment.... It is no wonder that so many kids are such punks now a days's because when you see their psycho parent screaming and bitching about everything, they follow!!!!! I am obvioulsy outspoken but, I am NOT disrespectful! If my boys ever disrespect an adult I will beat their ass! Why do some parents feel they are entitled? I just don't understand this...... I see James come home everynight from practice, and deal with a lot of extra, unnecessary bull shit. I commend him for his constant patience and "babysitting" of some of these parents who think throwing a tantrum and using the F word in fromt of the kids is "ok" because they had a bad day........ Really? I also LOVE the threats!!! Those are my favorite! "Well, then I'm taking my kid to another team..." Ummmm, ok, then turn in your kids shit and have fun.... Leave, bye bye, have fun. Let's show our kids that if they don't get their way that it's ok to quit. That's a great way to prepare them for real life when you work for an asshole!! Guess what, you have bills to pay! I also really enjoy the ones who threaten to sue, or say they're going to call their attorney because you get NO refund! You sign an agreeement that their is NO refunds so, how hard is that to understand?.... Hmmmmmmmm..... Hey listen, parenting is the hardest job out there but, WE need to be role models! Don't get me wrong, I am the first one to wanna be pissed if my kid is messed with but, this has nothing to do with the treatment of the kids, it's the parents and how they ruin this for their children by acting like animals! Just come and support and don't fight the rules! It is that simple..... Ok, rant over!

Moral to this post.... I am over the moon proud of my son, and parents you need a reality check sometimes.... or a shot of Patron and a Zanex...

Until next time..

P.S. I am so not perfect but, I try to be a good, supporive role model to my kids.

It's been so long!

It has been a while since my last post! This past month has been crazy!

Last month I found out I had 3 kidney stones! Yikes, that was awful pain! They really need to consider giving epidurals for that shit! My god, it is horrible! A week or so after that I was blind sided by the stomach flu, and then it spread like wild fire through this house! I was cleaning up puke for days! NASTY!!! And then of course I got a nasty cold that worked it's way into my throat, where the doctor found "ulcers" as he called it, and then in English he told me there were canker sores covering my entire throat! Just like the stones, that was good times!... Ummmm, no! I am the worlds biggest bitch when I am sick because even tho you wanna lay down and rest, YOU CAN'T when the entire household rely's on you for almost everything!! So, needless to say, the past month has been really crappy!

On a positive note, it is now Thanksgiving and I am so excited to be spending it here at home with the boy's and my in laws! This is Jame's favorite holiday and when we moved into the house 4 years ago, he began a tradition of cooking the bird... I used to look over his shoulder and coach every move, but I have stopped doing that because he does a wonderful job all on his own! Today he "prepped" his bird, and shot it up with a ton of melted butter! I am sure it will be amazing! I am in charge of all the side dishes and actually look forward to working with him in the kitchen! This is the ONLY time he is allowed in there while I am in there!

Jayce had an excellent report card, and a great parent teacher conference! I was very proud of his accomplishments. He is doing wonderful in school and I know he will continue to be a good student.. Soccer is over and he will not be returning, it's just not his thing! He is still taking hip hop, which he LOVES, and is trying to get through Cathecism as well...

Logan NEEDS to go to pre school! We are going to send him after the first of the year. He continues to be a holy terror, but he is so dang funny it is hard not to laugh at that kid! He decided he would call his big brother a "bitch" yesterday.... My lord how he picks up on things! Jayce never repeated any bad words so, this is a new journey I am on... He is a "toughie".... Getting mad and giving him a swat on the buns doesn't phase this child! I am so in trouble with this one!

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving! I am so thankful for everything in my life.... There are days when I wish I could "Have it all", but really I do... It's been in front of me all the time, I just didn't appreciate it before! I have a wonderful Husband who provides for this family... 2 healthy children... The best brother and sister ever, and 2 amazing parents! My in laws are also very special people who I am so grateful for...

Happy Thanksgiving to you all, be thankful for everything you have.

Until next time..

My LOVE for Footnotes

As most of you know I work at a dance studio in Ceres... This is my 5th year with Footnotes Dance Studio! Now, I have worked for some real assholes in my life! ALL MEN! The one positive thing that I took from my crappy experiences was a BACK BONE! I used to come home crying from the gymnastics gym I worked at almost weekly! James always said, "Kerry, you have to speak up for yourself or people will always run over you..." Guess I took that advice and RAN!

I started dance at age 3 in King City Ca at Pauline's Dance Studio... Black leotard, and pink tights, bun in hair every week! It was instant love! I LOVED to dance and entertain! I was introduced to "The Nutcracker" where I portrayed a mouse! I know, freakin lame right? BUT, I was little, and cute:)

We then moved to Anaheim Hills Ca where I danced at Christines..... Stayed there and did 2 recitals and we were off to move again!

Ending up in Turlock at age 8, my Mom enrolled me with Deborah Morgan.... I danced with Deborah for 13 years.. I had some amazing experiences, including many trips! LA, San Fran, Vegas.... But nothing could compare to the very last trip I was able to make at age 20, to Europe! I traveled to England, Amsterdam, France and Scotland! Danced in Hyde Park in London, The Edinburgh Fringe Festival in Scotland just to name a few. It was a chance of a lifetime! I was on a tour for 2 weeks, never been away from home, and in love with my future husband... I was so home sick! However, the experience was one that I cannot begin to put into words! Simply AMAZING!

I started coaching cheer for a local youth team at age 15... I stayed with Turlock Youth Cheer for 7 wonderful years! I talked the advisors into letting them compete which was something they had never done! It kinda escalated from there! I worked with some amazing young ladies, and some with whom I am still in touch with today..

After I realized I could actually get paid to teach, I moved onto high school cheer teams... Denair High, Delhi High, and then onto a magnificent Co Ed All Star Team named: Turlock Cheer Unlimited! They were the highlight of my coaching career! Kicking ass and taking names! Damn kids were spectacular!

I took some time off from coaching to start my family, and I missed it so! I contacted a local gym owner to see if he'd be interested in starting an all girl all star team... He agreed and I worked with Cheer Force Unlimited All Stars for 2 years... After my 2nd year, I was up to my neck and, had had it with cheer! I was so done! I wanted so badly to go back to my roots and start teaching dance! I wanted to be at a studio that had competitive teams as well as regular classes! Be careful what you wish for!

I met Lindsey Taylor years ago when I danced for Deborah.... We were in the same class... Very sweet, beautiful, curly blonde girl from Ceres.. Always thought she was a little quiet but oh so nice! Little did I know that years later that quiet, pretty girl would be signing my paychecks!

I ran into Lindsey at a local competition in Turlock my last year of cheer.. I said hello, and told her if she was hiring for her studio to please let me know! I wanted OUT of that crazy cheer world! Much to my surprise, she e mailed a few weeks later..

When I started with Footnotes I was so nervous! So scared, I mean I was so much older then the other instructors, and obviously not in the same shape as these little 2o somethings! Talk about intimidation! Almost immediately these people made me feel so welcome! They were funny, and you could tell they were all close! I really didn't think I would be accepted....... I was so wrong!

Five years later and I know I am where I belong... These people are family! I have developed some amazing friendships and bonds with these talented individuals! They have ALL been there for me through good and bad times.... The staff in the above picture are the people I can turn to in any crisis... I could not ask to have a more amazing job! I get to work with the sweetest kids who LOVE coming to dance class! I want to make their experience that much more special each week! Those kids light up my life, and if I am ever down they make me smile!

Netta, Chrissy, Melissa, Roxanne, Linds, Simon, Brianne, Melanie, Twitter, Morgan, Haylee, Sonya, Steph and Pookie:

You are so special to me.... You are not only co workers but you are FAMILY to me.... Thank you for making work such a fun and interesting place to be! Always a good time with this crew.... The work that we create together as a company is PHENOMENAL! Recital after recital we always pull out the most fantastic shows! I love you all so much and am so grateful that you have all come into my life..

Oh, and it's nice to have a boss who appreciates you.. It's also a perk to have that person be one of your very best friends.

YOU ALL ARE SUCH TALENTED AND REMARKABLE PEOPLE.. CHEERS TO ALL OF YOU!

XOXOXO

Peas and carrots

I could go on and on about Footnotes Dance Studio... You can check us out on Facebook or at

www.footnotesdancestudio.com

You won't regret sending your dancer to us! The STAFF will treat you like family...

Complaints Complaints

Ok, tonight I am going to vent and complain, so I am WARNING you now.... Don't read ahead unless you want to hear me whine!

Ok, first off.... It is against the LAW to go into a cross walk while pedestrians are in it! I deal with this everyday when I pick Jayce up from school! Even if they are half way through you CANNOT drive through it until they have crossed completely! Get it assholes? GOOD! Don't do it!

So, you people who decide to walk in the middle of the lane in the Target Parking Lot (Or any parking lot) are idiots! Get the hell out of the way! Either move to the left or, move to the right! There are cars trying to find a parking space, and what's even more irritating is when I am creeping up slowly in my car behind you, and you KEEP WALKING in the center! Get the fuck out of the way! Seriously!

For Christs sakes people, do you have to bring 7 family members to a doctor's appointment for your child? As if their aren't enough seats to sit in already! I mean, is it a show?? And, what kills me is when the child's name is called they ALL go to! Next time Logan has a doctors appointment I am sending out (USING YOUR LINE CURRY), engraved invitations to my entire family so they can come watch him get weighed, check his height, check his temp or, get shots! I think it is insane! I mean my own husband doesn't come to the kids appointments! Glad everyone is spreading their germs in the waiting room as if it isn't infested enough with cooties from the green, snotty nosed kid who just sneezed everywhere! Stay home, please!

Is it necessary to leave your trash in the grocery cart? Empty Starbucks cups, used Kleenex, your shopping list.... I have even seen diapers! MARCH YOUR LAZY ASS TO THE GARBAGE CAN! Oh, the best is when people go car seat shopping and leave the big ass box in the parking lot! Now that's a good one! Like the people in the store wanna clean up after you, an ADULT! Geesh!

Last but not least.... Costco samples are NOT a lunch time buffet for your damn family! It is to try a product and move on! Don't "park" your cart in the middle of the lane, where everyone has to go around it or get backed up because you want to feed you and your 12 kids lunch! GO TO THE FOOD COURT!

Ok, I think I am done.... Gosh, I kinda feel better:)

All bitching and complaining is copyright of me, and only me.... These are just my opinions and random thoughts.

Ignorance is a bitch

First of all, SMB thank you for inspiring me to write tonight.... You are amazing..

Do you realize that in the last 3 weeks their have been 5 suicide's by teens who are gay? FIVE! That is one too many!.... WHY in the hell is this still an issue? I do NOT understand...

Now, before you judge me or, my opinion, I can tell you first hand that I have personally dealt with homosexuality almost my whole life... It is near and dear to me, and I have always been ok with it... It does not bother me at all! I am not writing tonight to change your mind, or to make you believe in what I believe in... If anything, take a moment to look around, there is someone near you almost everyday who is gay. Is it really affecting your life?

How sad that the families of these young victims are dealing with these tragedies! How SAD that these victims felt there was no other way... How sad that our society has so much other fucked up shit going on that their focus is to tell someone who they should or shouldn't love.... Tyler Clementi jumped off the George Washington Bridge... and 13 year old Seth Walsh hanged himself! In most of these cases, these kids were teased and bullied. This makes me sick! When I was in school, I got teased for having big boobs! It was so hurtful, and I cannot IMAGINE what these kids had to endure everyday of their lives...

Gay people aren't sick... You can't get a disease from sitting next to them. Gay people don't turn straight people gay... Why can't people in this country educate themselves? Why are people so damn mean? Oh, and let me tell you, gay people are NOT going to pick up on your ass! Trust me, they know who runs in their circle! Good lord.. You ain't that fly!

I found out that my Brother was gay when I was 15.. A Sophomore in High School, my Mom came into my room one evening to tell me.... I said, "ok...." She looked at me funny.... I said, "Mom, I could have told you that..." I knew, I always knew.... It wasn't something shocking nor did it bother me in the least. My Brother was an amazing person, both talented and funny........

I knew that I went to school with a lot of people who were gay... They either didn't know it yet, or they were too scared to admit it and come out... How sad! How is it that I can walk around and be who I want to be but, a gay person has to hide, bottle it up, pretend... I find that so disturbing and pathetic that I live in a country where I am supposed to have freedoms but, a gay person has to worry about the ignorance and brain washed church crowds to look down on them and "pray" for them? They don't need prayer! They need support, love, loyalty and acceptance! I hope that in my lifetime I live to see the day when the gay community is accepted by all... Until then, I will continue to LOVE everyone... Gay, straight, black, green, polka dotted, skinny, fat whatever!!

I am not here to change your views.... We all have a right to our opinion, that is for sure... I think that everyone needs to be aware of what is going on with these young kids! Our youth shouldn't be dying! They have a whole life ahead of them! I know that I have already talked to Jayce about the subject... I have told him that we DO NOT make fun of people regarding their race, origin or, choice of loved one.. It is WRONG and if he ever has any questions to come to ME!!! Not to anyone else! I will fill my child's head with knowledge and not HATE or disgust!

Take a minute to remind yourself that we all have choices... And although you may not "believe" there is no NEED to be mean and hateful.. Just mind your own business.

Rob,

You are amazing and I am proud of you everyday! You inspire me more then you will ever know! You have been there for me when nobody else was....... I know I can always call you for a good laugh and, although you are a state away I am always here for you and will hop on the next flight in a heartbeat if you ever need it! You are strong, and endured so much.... Your talent has taken you so far, and I admire all you do for others. You are the most unselfish person I have ever known. How lucky I am to have a big Brother like you!